My voice

I think I need to find my voice. I get so frustrated when in a team setting that my input is pushed aside, but later in the situation, another person says the same “idea” and they are heard and they get credit for my original idea. It makes my want to keep my mouth shut and let the others fail. I am not stupid, but I apparently can not get my point across accurately. I’m in this training, and I know how to help fix the problem, but now I have “checked out” I’m now just going through the motions, if the team succeeds, great for them, but I ‘m done. I have given up. I will learn what I need to learn, but I can’t not force them to listen, so I am done talking.

I think I’ve been this way my whole life. Sometimes I feel invisible, until the shit hits the fan, and who do they call to fix it? ME! I told them that this item would break or this function was “broken” but they don’t hear me. So, I have figure out a way to fix it when it becomes an emergency, rather than when there is actually time to fix the problem before it becomes a problem. No one hears me. No one listens to me. I am invisible.

I really need to communicate better. I need to learn how to be heard. Where do I go from here?

What is a Blog anyway?

I'm pretty new to this thing "blogging" thing and I'm not really sure what it's all about. Is it like a dairy that your know your little brother will find and read, so you edit out the "good" parts? or another way of keeping in touch with those I love? or just a place to jot down a few random thoughts.



I don't know for sure, but I guess I'll give it a try.

These are my babies.


I'm amazed that they are so stinking cute! I thought for sure my sisters had a patent on making beautiful children, but I guess I got a couple cute genes too.

All 3 are miracles, I after all the fertility treatments with Nicole, the Dr's said I probably wouldn't be able to have anymore without "help". Well, a little over a year later.... Dr's don't know everything! I had natural twins... My James & Ashley are amazing.

I don't know if this qualifies as a "BLOG", but sleep is calling me and I think I will answer.

G'nite