My voice

I think I need to find my voice. I get so frustrated when in a team setting that my input is pushed aside, but later in the situation, another person says the same “idea” and they are heard and they get credit for my original idea. It makes my want to keep my mouth shut and let the others fail. I am not stupid, but I apparently can not get my point across accurately. I’m in this training, and I know how to help fix the problem, but now I have “checked out” I’m now just going through the motions, if the team succeeds, great for them, but I ‘m done. I have given up. I will learn what I need to learn, but I can’t not force them to listen, so I am done talking.

I think I’ve been this way my whole life. Sometimes I feel invisible, until the shit hits the fan, and who do they call to fix it? ME! I told them that this item would break or this function was “broken” but they don’t hear me. So, I have figure out a way to fix it when it becomes an emergency, rather than when there is actually time to fix the problem before it becomes a problem. No one hears me. No one listens to me. I am invisible.

I really need to communicate better. I need to learn how to be heard. Where do I go from here?